why do i still believe?

i cant wait for christmas
i cant wait for bintan
i cant wait for genting
(:
i hate life, too little happy moments
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;somehow i know you'll come into my life and brighten it up
y'know you love me 9:05 AM
maybe its true, i cant live without you
i cried, again.
i love doing that for people who seem to care but hurt me anyways. my friends are my whole life, my everything. if you want to keep doing whatever the fuck you want then get out of my life. dont tell me you care and then hurt me the next moment. if you care, dont leave me to die at the end of the day. dont say hurtful things that i will never say to you, dont treat me the way i will never treat you. i know im not perfect but i treasure the people in my life.
b, i want to talk to you but i am afraid of what would happen.
i really dont want us to be apart, i want us to be like before.
; i dont know who to turn to
y'know you love me 6:33 PM